This is quiet a hard blog post to write but I will do my best.
I started University
I was up every morning at 6m organising my life, Master O's life and my house.
I would drop Master O at school and go straight to University.
I would study and attend lectures till it was time to collect Master O and then we would go to
maths tuition, swimming, basketball, cricket practise.
Rush home to do dinner, homework, the night time routine
and I would then study again till 10.30pm.
I found myself talking about getting a house cleaner,
I was looking at school holiday programmes for Master O,
I was thinking of ways to get out of weekend family events so I could study.
My wonderful husband was helping as much as he could but he was also away with work
on some occasion's.
I found myself withdrawing from my family.
When I was home I was not really present as I was all in my head.
Thinking about all the things I had learnt and all the things I needed to learn.
In 3 weeks of University I had 3 migraines , which is an all time record for me.
I sat down one night and had a family meeting with my boys.
Master O said "I did not seem as happy as I normally was".
Mr O who has been nothing but supportive when I asked him to be honest with me said
"That he felt the University had stolen me and he wanted me back".
I realised that I wanted my family life back too.
So I withdrew from University as I realised that now is not the time for me to do this.
I may go back next semester and do a paper or two at a time if that is do able with
our life style.
So suddenly I am plan less but I am okay with that as I know it was the right decision for now.
The day after I withdrew I had two new shops email asking me if they could stock my designs.
So for now I am back in my sewing room and I must confess after weeks of not sewing
I am happy to be back amongst all my felt.
I am leaving you with a quote from Gretchen Rubin that resonated with me.
To be happy:
"I need to know myself, accept myself and build a life on the foundation of my nature"
Following what feels right in your heart is always the way to go. Good luck with the next part of your adventure. Lisa. XxReplyDelete